the invisible ink

this ink has the power of making things dissapear. I like it. I should be following my gut. Do what my heart tells me to. Eventhough, I'm a semi mess atm, I should do this passion once and for all. Hmmm.

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Haih.

The feeling of void return again.

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The Great Battle!

This is a weird stage in my life. It's good to know good people and orang hensem2 macam fungusinthemilk! I'm kinda confused about a few things. But we have to move forward.

Two songs are playing in my head. Yuna and Hanafi's 'Sparkle' VS 'The Foreigner' by seven collar t-shirt. Two really awesome songs. Go get 'The Great Battle' album by scts. Coming out soon! This feeling of zoosh is fully complemented by the album. Awesome stuff!

Watch Yuna and Hanafi performing sparkle here!

*album artwork by Rewan Ishak (Awesome!)

**ikanPaos Collective: the engine's warming up. We need support! Watch this space.

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ikan paos

something big is awaking from a deep slumber. it's coming.

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On things to come

It is time to start. We need something that triggers our imaginations, frees our minds, liberate us. not just mere propaganda or sociopolitical video stints to boost popularity (Although some are different). We need to inject quality in things we do. Challenge the society's intellect. Produce work of such high taste, that whoever doesn't understand it will have to wisen up and follow. Say 'tak nak' not only to cigarettes but also to low quality, mindless content. We are ready. The time is near.

Something is coming. And we need to jump on board.

We need something like this to move us:



(New music videos by Rewan Ishak. 'Wild Child' and 'Fragile' from Seven Collar T-Shirt)

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How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

again and again

It's final. Mid August. That's when I'm leaving. It's a huge deal. After nearly six years, I'm finally going back to Malaysia for good.

I can't wrap my head around that fact. But, it's just something I have to do. Life, and specifically career wise, has been stagnant for too long.

This first half of 2009 have been very productive and informative. It's time to use whatever I've learnt here and apply it back home. (Even if the fate of the industry is still highly questioned and doubted)

A few friends have asked if I wanted to make films in Australia. Why not Australia? Why Malaysia?

Firstly, I don't see myself qualified to make anything, anywhere, YET. I have to learn still and gain more experience. But, I'm free to indulge in my imaginations and daydreams. So even if I wanted to, I can't make films here. Its too competitive and I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Also the fact that I'm an outsider and communication issues.

I'm Malaysian. I want to make Malaysian films. Help grow the industry in some way, if at all. Patut aku tulis Bahasa Malaysia kot kalau nak berpatriotik ni. Lantak. Lagipun, aku rasa kalau kerja ngan orang Malaysia lagi senang nak communicate kot. Wavelength sama. And, aku rasa skarang mesti lagi ramai orang celik pandai yang nakkan something new. Aku pun nak jugak!

So what now?

Perah otak!

There's a million options to choose from. Maybe first and foremost, some kind of financial stability. Don't mistaken this for mundane-ness. This is merely to survive.

Next, I'm really excited to meet these growing number of youngsters yang semakin mengancam kerja2 diorang. Filmmakers, musicians, artists, creative writers. I need to be kept up to date because I've been away for far too long. I've missed out on so much, watching from a distance. This time, I wanna be in the mess too. I'm offering my services for something similar in return.

For now, that's about it. I'm not yet ready to disclose more plans on this forsaken blog. But I really do have a million things that I want to do. How exciting.