Disproportionate

At the moment, summer is crazy and I smell wood. Man, saw-freaking-dust! in my face! this dude called Mario is slicing up my wooden floor just to make it fit. it's crazy! He's doing everything with sunglasses on. That's what happens when water gets in under wooden floors. Note: Never get wooden flooring close to any kind of water. No Luigi today. Just Mario.

9 days pass. Still no news. Maybe time for a little retail therapy? I dunno.

To film or not to film? Too many DSLR nowadays, puts me off snapping things.

Money makes the world go round but I don't have enough of it for therapy. I've been binge book buying recently and I have 10+ untouched/ half read books. They're all in a box and in a different place so I can't read them yet. Wait till things settle down then I'll dive into my Murakami's and Neil Gaiman's. For the time being, I will try and learn to be a Warrior of Light. Here's a snippet:

The warrior of light concentrates on the small miracles of daily life.

He is capable of seeing what is beautiful because he carries beauty within himself, for the world is a mirror and gives back to each man the reflection of his own face. The warrior knows his faults and limitations, but he does all he can to maintain a good humour in moments of crisis.

The world is, after all, doing its best to help him, even though everything around him seems to be saying the opposite.

-Paolo Coelho, Manual of the Warrior of Light

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One Sided Conversation

I'm speaking more to myself than anyone else.

Hopes and dreams will stay only that, if you don't do something about it. Sometimes, in order to achieve it is to sacrifice something. It could be anything, be it time, money or even a 4 year degree. Let's write a story. Of what? You already know what, you've already started writing it. It's just time to sprint to the finish. Complete your thesis of thought, your dream journal.

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Absolute emptiness

This is the absolute worst feeling someone can have. Total emptiness.

I have been following them since I was a kid. There is no other band that I look up to in Malaysia. Why does it have to be now? When I'm stuck in Australia. I should be in my home country, listening to their last performance.

4 shows with a full line up.

PENERBITAN BUTTERWORLD presents

Sesi Istana Budaya Butterfingers

Saturday

17/01/09

1996 - 2001 Unplugged

With guest band Bunkface

2:30pm - 4:00pm

RM 35 per entry

Saturday

17/01/09

Mari Hidup Kembali (Sessi Gitar Kapok)

Dengan band jemputan Hujan

8:30pm - 10:00pm

RM 35 per entry

Sunday

18/01/09

Transcendence 10-year Anniversary Rock Out

2:30pm - 4:00pm

RM 35 per entry

Sunday

18/01/09

Mari Hidup Kembali (Sessi Gitar Karan)

8:30pm - 10:00pm

RM 35 per entry

Adam called me from the gig with 'the chemistry' playing. That'll be the last time I would be hearing it for a long while. Why?! Now I'm just an empty shell.

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Freud

I have never studied psychology before but it interests me. I am very intrigued by our minds, to say the least, and the way it works. The most interesting aspect of the mind, to me, is in its complexity and the possible untapped powers it possess. I have written about this before (I think) but never actually researched about it.

I plan/wish/would like to embark on a 'thesis' to uncover something about Freud's theory of the subconscious. I know that his work is very popular and dozens of people would definitely have studied this but I personally have not. I don't even know what he says about the topic. I would very much like to find out and see if I agree or not.

Here I go. Into the world of research.

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