Tunggu

10.11pm

I am still waiting for that 'ticket'. I need a fresh start. I am stuck.. Even though my plans have changed. I always wonder if this was a good choice. It's still not too late. Passion or the rat race? I've got support behind me, choice doesn't scare me. I've made the choice.

I'm maybe all talk, no action. But then again, i need that 'ticket' to act.

Luck? Am I just plain unlucky? A few others have got it already! Some people with the exact same circumstances as me! It's not luck, it's just how it is.

Obama is planning his moves now. Even when Bush is still president in office. Obama says he wants to start on the ground running. In a way, Obama is in waiting too. He can't act. But when he does, people expect it to be one hell of a ride. That's probably not going to be the case with me. Maybe I'll start out crawling but soon it will change hopefully.

What the hell am I rambling about?!

This is what you get when you sit in one place for a long time. You talk to yourself, in the form of blogging. Pass the time.

10.23pm

Most blogs are as vague as this. What the hell is the 'ticket'? What 'choice'? 'Luck'? What?

I believe this jumpyness is because our minds are jumpy. We can't think of one thing too long. You have to really concentrate. Which I am NOT doing at the moment.

Mental note: I am out of pictures. I shall go out tomorrow and take some. It's been awhile.

Might as well turn OFF.

10.29pm

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Floating in vacuum, Moksha and Gelombang Cinta

I have been lazy these few days. Last month was my busiest month ever, in terms of blogging. I've never written so much shit in my life. Maybe except the time when I was back in high school, writing my 'Agama' exam paper.

My back is killing me. This imac requires me to sit in an up right postion. Kalau laptop, boleh baring and malas-malas.

It is now 4.31am in the morning and I don't have any reason to be up. There's nothing that is interesting happening. 25 people are online in my MSN, 222 offline. I just chat with only about 5 people from the list, the other about 5-10 very rarely, and the rest, probably never. My facebook is practically in a standstill for some reason. Maybe its exam season and nobody's really doing anything, indirectly making me not have anything to do. I just feel like writing some empty crap on here that has no meaning whatsoever.

It is going to be hard for people to comment because apparently, this post has no real content. Some who feel like commenting would maybe come up with a 'hahaha', or 'Finally, first to comment!'*

I can't remember if I've plugged anything before on here. So, if you're feeling down whenever you're reading this, or maybe stuck at work, or have millions of assignments due and just need a break, or sitting alone at starbucks with your laptop and getting annoyed with the noisy surrounding, or...you get the idea, you can check out the following (if you haven't already):

1. Flight of the Conchords (saw this again after awhile):



2. Mr. Afeeeeeeef pointed out this funny little clip that I've so ignorantly missed out on. Meet Achmed:



Oh Butterfingers, thank you for 'Floating in Vacuum' and 'Moksha' and the likes. Brings back good old memories. Maybe this is what they mean by 'Kembali', reminding us that they're still there and to go back and listen to old records. It's a good soundtrack for middle-of-the-night inspirations.

Is anybody in the mood for love(not really):



*1. I don't see the point of being first in a comment box, is there an organisation that keeps track of first commentors and supply funky prizes like a trip around India on The Darjeeling Limited Express? 2. I don't think anyone reading my blog is racing to be first to comment.

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notes to self

ON NLP

1. key to unlocking potential
2. can lead to developing innovative and effective skills
3. what people believe is more significant to their lives than what is real/true
4. we have great wisdom in our subconscious mind
5. people are complex adaptive learning 'systems', surrounded by and communicating with other complex systems (world)
6. reality has to be seen in context

ON SCHIZO

1. delusions
2. altered states
3. hallucination, unlike dreaming, involves consciousness

ON REALITY

ON TIME

*note: this is an incomplete post. It has no meanings or intentions. A mere act of putting pen to paper. Fingers to keyboard to data to cyberspace. We live in a highly complex world and any attempt to fully understand it is futile. Or is it?

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aku ingin mencuba

Aku nak try tulis dalam Bahasa Malaysia. Aku rasa memang susah untuk tulis macam ni sebab aku dah biasa 'bercakap' dalam BM tapi bukan menulis. Mungkin ramai diantara kita yang macam ni. Kalau tulis comment boleh je tulis BM. Tapi kalau nak tulis blog, mesti English juga paling lancar. Bukan poyo tapi kebiasaan.

Topik hari ini ialah 'kerenah orang'.

Somehow, BM lebih sesuai digunakan untuk caci maki. Aku paling tak suka melayan kerenah orang. Aku tak gemar terlibat dalam bisnes 'people pleasing' sebab manusia memang banyak kerenah. 'Treat people like how you want to be treated'. Tak ramai orang yang buat macam ni. Aku mengaku, aku bersalah juga kadang kala. Tapi, kebelakangan ni aku jumpa terlampau ramai orang yang kerek.

ISI:
Hal ini akan lebih menjadi-jadi apabila kita berkata tentang 'collective minds/behaviour'. Ataupun dalam BM nya...aku langsung tak tau...'Kumpulan minda/perilaku'? Perangai manusia akan lebih menjadi-jadi jika kita dalam satu kumpulan.

CONTOH:
Perkara ini boleh dilihat dikalangan mat rempit yang berleluasa di Malaysia. Kalau kita lepak one on one dengan diorang, more often than not kita akan lepak dengan orang yang decent. Tapi bila 'geng' dia dah join, MASYARAKAT!

KESIMPULAN:
Aku tak suka melayan kerenah orang yang kerek. Aku boleh menulis dalam Bahasa Malaysia. Paling kurang pun, separa lah.

MARKAH KARANGAN:
51% (Bagus. Tapi usaha lagi. Rajin membaca)

*EDIT*
Somehow after writing this I feel its a totally worthless post.

Note to self: Write about memories next time.

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living in the past

I am living in the past.

It is beautiful.

I know I shouldn't be.

There is no one here but me.

why am i here? i still want a piece of this place.

lifeisshortliveinthenowdowhatyouwant.
ittakescouragetobeidealisticandpursuewhatyoulike.

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